memories • Signed on 2005-11-24, 4:08 p.m.

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Hello Fianza =)

It's been a long while eh? Don't know how many of you still come down here. But I didn't really feel like sending an email so I thought I'd just blog here. Even in time when this place is shrouded in cobwebs, it will -hopefully- still exist. Even not tangibly, yeah? ^^

Well, I have been thinking these last few days (of being really sian at home) and I was thinking about leaving RGS. I realise I don't have any particular feeling. It's not really emotionless, it's a bit of there-is-nothing-much-to-feel-about-anyway. Almost everyone is going to RJ together, even if we are in different streams, the farewells that we had didn't seem to make as good an impact as we thought it would. And I was about to think that I wouldn't miss anything in RGS if that was the case.

But I realised I was wrong. I realised how much I would miss our batch. The mornings together, sleeping on the cushions, whacking each other, talking crap, groaning and moaning when the bell rings...carrying out functions together, participating in them, rushing for the reception when the guests were done with them, grumbling about lousy court shoes and stockings...having batchtalks in the room, the AVA room, Kar Wei's hse, the chalets for post PI...the dance pracs, the mad rush to settle last minute admin stuff, laying out chairs for PI...having camps together, dirty games in sec 2 with rotten fruits and eggs, doing nightwalk, watching our jnrs do it, huddling together in slumber...

Do they mean anything to you? I don't know, but they meant the world to me when they occurred. And they still do, really. I still think of those times happily and I know you all are still out there, for each other. I won't evaluate how successful our batch has been throughout the last 3 years. But I was reading through a mail I had kept for a long while from Jing. It was about us. Telling us that we were a batch, we mustn't shirk our responsibilities as individuals, as a batch. I cannot say we really proved ourselves completely. But what we have proved is that, despite all the trials and tribulations we have been through, we can still honestly say that being in Fianza has been a great experience. Whether positive or negative. And for me, it is positive, and I'll never forget the times we shared together.

Whatever it is, I wish each and every one of you a wonderful journey ahead. Whether or not we will meet again wholly as a batch, or at least some of us, it doesn't matter. As long as we know we once shared such beautiful memories. Thanks for being there for me, and I love you all always.

Lots and lots of love,
Ray

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